HERE’S WHAT I’VE HIDDEN UNDER MY TONGUE #1, free, 4¼” x 5½”, copied, 26pgs.

May 29, 2020

The anonymous author of Here’s What I’ve Hidden under My Tongue describes their experience battling disordered eating through a series of vignettes. They also explore the impact gender has on disordered eating, and how their coming out as a trans-man helped them see things differently. “Now I could allow myself… to say that it didn’t apply to me since I wasn’t a girl anyway,” they write. That respite was only temporary, as the author reveals further struggles to maintain a culturally acceptable body. “Gay male culture imposes its own impossible standards of beauty and without the advantage of feminist counterculture to fight it,” they write. The author explores the origins of their own disordered eating from their unique perspective. They attempt to draw some conclusions while also asking and attempting to answer the question of why it was important to write about it, and why someone should read their zine. While I couldn’t personally relate to the experience of disordered eating, I related to the author’s mental health struggles, and appreciated their ability to unpack their own personal baggage with a great amount of candor and clarity. I don’t often read perzines, but I thought this was very well written. I also appreciated the clean simplicity of its design and the author’s use of quotes from others to enhance their work. –Paul J. Comeau (D.J.T., 103 N Bliss St, Apt B, Anchorage, AK 99508)